an attention whore? me?

i totally went to in-n-out in full blizzcon attire

yeah, i admit it, i kind of am.  not in like the needy, whinny, little bitch way.  like i'm not going to totally freak out if i happen to be invisible that day, and sometimes i will embrace it if i am.  and i don't go out of my way to seek attention.  it has more to do with i don't really give a shit what other people think, and this tends to lead me into doing things that happen to draw attention.  i suppose in a way that writing is one of those things.  especially based on the fact that when i asked a few people last night if i could pull off a post on sex without being too weird, the response was "you talk about everything else, why not."  so apparently nothing i do surprises my friends anymore.  

other things would probably be the fact that i do karaoke totally sober.  i also sing along with the radio when writing up patients' charts in the mornings.  i will randomly bust into little dances at work, and name whatever dance i'm doing.  there's the "happy dance," the "this-annoying-pet-is-going-home-today dance" (expect to see that one on monday), the "doc-is-running-on-time-today dance" (this is a very rare, elaborate dance done in the form of artistic interpretation.  too bad no one ever gets to see it), and many more.  i've been preferming in some context since about second grade.  i have no problem doing mundane tasks in full costume.  since i do travel to go to ren faires, i can regularly be seen pumping gas, decked out as an elizabethan peasant in a town where no one has any idea where i'm going.  after the closing events at blizzcon, we went to in-n-out for food, where a little boy asked me if i was a witch and could i do magic.  i explained to him that i was a knight but i had to leave my sword out in the car, and apparently this made perfect sense to him.  this might be why i tend to go all out on any costume i wear.  i do enjoy the fact that other people like them.  

i think a lot of it is that very little will embarrass me, so i really don't have anything holding me back other than my morals, and those are slightly lacking sometimes.  a lot of it also has to do with the fact that i'm just plain awesome, and i don't really care if that sounds narcissistic or not.  i prefer to think of it as a high level of self confidence.  and if people happen to enjoy watching what i do, then so be it.  the fact of the matter is that i would still do it, even if no one was watching.