a little scared

and no, it's not because i've been watching a shit ton of supernatural lately.  it's because next tuesday i'm going to the doctor to have them check out my heart.  for the past few days, i've been having what feels like an irregular heart beat on occasion.  today it was happening like hourly, so i made myself an appointment.  sometimes it sorta feels like i skip a beat, sometimes it feels like my heart is contracting extra hard, sometimes my chest feels a little tight.  i listened to it at work, and from what i can tell it doesn't sound like there is a murmur, but it's totally possible i'm wrong.  it does run in the family; my grandma had a murmur, my mom has a valve issue.  i'm hoping it turns out to be nothing, and that they just tell me to cut back on caffeine or something.  but i also know there's a chance that there may be something wrong.  so i'm nervous.  at least this doctor could see me next week.  first place i called couldn't see me until august.  and considering it's my heart and i only have one of those, i figured it was probably best not to wait that long.

i'm in love...

...with my tattoo guy.  because he did an amazing job on my pin up.  took about two and a half hours from start to finish.  didn't hurt too bad, just had a few involuntary twitches when the needle hit a nerve.  my shoulder actually bothered me more than the tattoo did.  stupid joint just kept getting stiff.  but it was worth it.  it turned out way better than i was expecting, and i love the colors.  it's still really fresh, and that's sorta obvious in the pics, but here are some close ups on some of the details, as well as an over all view of it.  also, i wish i had her boots in real life.

as a side note, some girl came in to get a normal ear piercing while i was there (her first one).  she kinda freaked out when she saw i was getting tattooed, she's screamed when she got the piercings done, and she wouldn't let the guy wash the piercing mark off after because she thought it would make it hurt even more.  n00b

anticipation

so i'm getting a new tattoo tomorrow, and i have the pre-tattoo jitters.   not in the sense that i'm nervous or scared about it, but more like an "OMG! OMG! OMG! LET'S GET THIS DONE! YAY!" kinda way.  i got the final picture today, and it's going to be awesome!  keep in mind that this is just the outline, it's going to be in color.  i'll be sure to post pics after it's done.  but until then, i'm just going to sit here and "squeeeeeee!" with excitement.

why i love editing

so i have a love/hate relationship with photo editing.  i hate it because it takes a really fucking long time to sort through six hundred plus pictures to choose the good ones, and then edit the ones that need it.  and while i don't do any major editing (as in i don't change what is in the picture in any way), i do things like glare reduction or color correction or changing it to black and white, and quite frankly that takes a long ass time.  on the plus side, i end up with some amazing pictures that i totally fall in love with.  this weekend was a great example of that.  i went to the western states horse expo with my mom, and i literally took six hundred and sixty four pictures.  a lot of this was due to the fact the horses move, so i was using the sports capture setting, which takes a shit ton of pictures at a crazy fast shutter speed over a short period of time.  so i end up wait a lot of excess pictures.  i whittled it down to fifty six pictures that i wanted to spend the time editing and posting.  oh and just so you can see why i love editing, i turned this average picture of a fresian mare:

 into this:

 

which was one of my favorite picture of the day, just by cropping it down and changing the color.  my second favorite picture of the day was my mom being all horse whisper like with a filly that was for sale.  again, all i did was crop and color change, and i seriously love how it turned out.

as usual, click here if you want to see the other fifty four pictures.  i'm very happy with how they turned out.  editing is definitely a labor of love for me.

feline pretzel

so while my cat may be totally fail at being a ninja, she is in fact pretty damn pro at being a pretzel.  and she totally puts herself in these positions, i couldn't stage it even if i wanted to. 

i have no idea how any of that is any form of comfortable.